Bibliophile

The future is unpredictable, who has ever accurately known what the future would bring to them. Altering your present to such an extent that doesn’t resonate with you for a future you’re very uncertain about is as hopeless as wishing on shooting stars.

I believe everyone has a hurdle to deal with, a set of problems they have to overcome, a hope for something better is the only thing that keeps us going on, me being one of them as well. Our lives aren’t perfect, sometimes it almost feels like we’re living in cages and you have the key but you don’t know how to use it.

After going through a tough week, I play the Apple discovery playlist on my way to a coffee shop and I realize how much I have been taking my life for granted. Who am I to predict my future? Where and how would I even begin?
A year ago, I had a different life, a different phase, a different circle, different feelings, I was stuck in a toxic environment without seeing any chance to escape but here I am today in a whole different dimension, without having to be able to predict any of the things I have today.

My clock might stop ticking tomorrow, or the day after, but I wonder, would I be happy with how my life turned out? Have I gone after what my heart has desired or have I been holding myself back because of second-guessing?
My point isn’t that you should be radical and dramatic without a care of the future but it’s that don’t stress about what’s coming, don’t ruin your present with your own overthinking, the future will be dealt in the future, but your present needs your present self to live in the moment.

Having regrets is part of life, it’s a sign you’ve made mistakes and you’ve learned from them rather than staying safe and not enjoying the one & only life that you have. There’s plenty of laughter to go around, there are more inside jokes to be shared, there’s a life to be lived. No one is going to live forever, you might as well make existential nihilism comforting.

This week has taught me to:
Keep on loving louder, even if they don’t reciprocate you, just because you’ve never been treated right doesn’t mean you should adopt the same. Go tell them you love them, end the grudges with your past self, learn that new skill that you’ve been interested in, start reading a book, eat to your heart’s satisfaction and then work out the next day (if you want to), work on the blog you love, but most importantly recycle your negative thoughts into positivity, surround yourself with people who bring out the best in you because it’s rare to find them, don’t isolate yourself, change your ways.

and
be
more
spontaneous.

PS-Enjoy the playlist, that elicited this entire line of thought xx.

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